Last Day

Wow, this month has flown by.  If this is an indication on how fast this year will go, then I'd better buckle up!  This year will have a few milestones for our family.  My 40th birthday, the arrival of my baby niece, our son's 1st birthday, our 3rd year wedding anniversary....

So far 2011 has been proven to be a good one for us.  Except for illness of course.  I was sick in December, then got well for most of  January.  Attended a kiddie party. Bam! Sick again.  I didn't notice any sick kids...but then again, kids could play and laugh through anything. I'm still trying to shake it, but I've learned that I've just got to let it run it's course.

We weighed our big guy last night.  19lbs.  Mommy & Daddy have been losing, baby boy - gaining! Yay.

Dear Diary,

What the  $#*! bleep* 844 profile views? Shocker for sure.  I just started blogging in December. Wow.  I  don't know what to make of that number. Seems high. I'm glad that my blogs (and profile) are being read though.  An unread blog to me is a sad thing.

Individual blog views (since I five different ones) vary.  Here are my January month end numbers:

Confidential Conversation:  47 views
Dollars & Sense:  295 views
Happy Wife, Happy Life:  68 views
My Life as Mom:  210 views
Recollection Collection:  242 views

Project: Keep blogging, get healthy.


Me

Where oh where?

OK, I will admit that I really enjoy blog writing. But even more so, I enjoy blog reading.  I am looking for some interesting reads... I don't know how to search on Blogspot as I am a former Xanga girl.  I am hoping that good reading will find me, follow me, and in turn I could follow back.  Thankfully I have a couple of friends that I have found on here and can catch up with! Hi Liz! Hi Mel!  I am enjoying reading both of your pregnancy/motherhood experiences and wish that I was more diligent in keeping track of my own. It's never too late though!  Please direct me to some blogs to subscribe to! Ms. M ? Time to blog again, I need company.

Dear Diary,

I am hoping not to regret planting my roots on Blogspot.com.  I need to be patient and see how it goes.  Bloggers  seem much more shy (or just stingy with their thoughts) than on Xanga-land where opinions are more generously shared and feedback is given freely.  I know that I am being read as my page views keep increasing (and yes, I have it set not to track my own page views).  Lurkers? OH well.  I won't give up. Yet.  I will soon cut my ties with fb. I am ready for change.  Project for today: Find blogs to follow.


Me

The Skinny

4 months away to the big 40.  Goal: lose 40 lbs.  10 lbs a month.  That's doable, right? I would be happy with 30 but I am aiming high.  I've never dieted before so we'll see how it goes. It's going to be tough since I have to keep my calorie intake up as I am still breastfeeding.  I guess I should check with my doctor to see if this is something I should even attempt!

Here's the skinny:

I'm sure that you are all familiar with the term "freshman 15".  I have coined a new term: the "first year 15".  The first year of marriage that is!  Yes, I put on 15 lbs during my first year of marriage.  The happiest 15 pounds for sure! I was pregnant during our 2nd year of marriage. Add 50 lbs.  I did pretty good for the first 5 months in terms of "target" weight gain.  I was able to wear my regular jeans up to that point.  By month 7 I had gained 35.  After that I really excelled!   Post baby I have lost 32 lbs.  Those pounds fell off without even trying. It's now time to try.  I am four months away from my fortieth birthday and what I plan to do is lose 10 pounds a month.  I have decided to blog it out to make myself more accountable.  No one wants to shame themselves by public failure right?! Don't worry about me though I am success bound!  Anyone care to join along?  A friend of mine is doing a Biggest Loser challenge at her workplace.  I work with skinnies already so I can't find any competition here.  I would challenge hubby, but I can see myself becoming overly competitive with him and would rather maintain our harmonious home!  Wish me luck!  Encouragement is openly accepted.  Success stories out there? Please share!

In case there are any mean girls out there reading & thinking "fat ass"... My comeback: Not one battle wound on this girl.  I had my happy, healthy 8lb 3 oz baby au naturale.  My nurses were awesome & high-fived me all the way!  Stretch marks: ZERO and my hubby still thinks I'm hot.  So all the lbs were worth it! OK, time now to shake off the negativity so haters can kiss my big butt.


Here's a thought - if I bring sexy back... that may lead to another pregnancy! LOL. Then I would have to start all over huh?

Dear Diary,

If I do or if I don't I'm happy. Day by day. Let's just do this day by day.

Me

I know. I know!

Dear Diary,

I know that I should spend my lunch breaks by taking a nice little walk to enjoy the outdoors.  I would definitely benefit from the vitamin D boost from the sun.  I could use some fresh air.  Not to mention a bit of exercise. I know. I know!  I am much happier using my time blogging.  It soothes my soul, gets my mind flowing, and I'm just so comfy here at my desk.  In case it isn't obvious....project from prior blog? Fail.

Project for tomorrow: No blog, perhaps a jog? We shall see...

Me

Everyday Miracles

To be alive, to be able to see, to walk,...it's all a miracle.
-- Arthur Rubinstein (1887-1982) Polish Pianist


Dear Diary,

Even though I struggled to just get up and go this morning- I said a prayer thanking God for another day.  I do this everyday.   Project for today: not only remain thankful for the miracle that it is to be alive but on this day I just might perform a miracle and enjoy a nice walk during lunch.  Project from yesterday? Fail.

Me

Purpose

I have decided to blog again and find myself going off on different tangents. I have set up separate blogs to hopefully properly categorize my topics.  This in itself may be pure craziness, but I will give it a go.

This particular blog "Confidential Conversation" will be used much like a diary.  Just my personal thoughts for the day.  Something for me to look back on and ponder.  I am suddenly sad that I have lost all of the diaries that I kept during my younger years. 

In reading some of my recent posts I have been finding that I am the sort of person who needs to justify all of my actions.   Rationalizing everything from my choices for lunch and the way I should catalog my blogs to everything under the sun.  I guess that I have been this way since childhood. What is the point of it all?  Sometimes I wish I were more impulsive.  I've never understood those who have mastered "flying by the seat of one's pants".  I truly cannot relate. I will try to do things less purposefully and try to go with the flow.  Growing up I was cautioned to be careful.  I guess that I could have taken it into context and realized that my parents meant 'be careful when riding your tricycle' and 'be careful of strangers'.  Somehow I took it to heart and tried to be careful about EVERYTHING.  I grew up as an apprehensive child. Quiet and shy would best describe me.  I was the type of kid that would know the answer to question that the teacher would pose but be too timid to raise my hand.  Even when it came to reading childrens books, I couldn't just simply enjoy the entertainment value of the story but would focus on the moral that was being conveyed.  Maybe my parents should have gotten me picuture books instead.  And what is the moral of my story?  Oh, who knows?  I am not quite sure if anything 'made' me this way.  It's just simply me.  Thankfully I have grown to be a confident, communicative person.  I still though try to find reason in the things I do and how I do it. That's just me.

Today's entry:

Dear Diary,

Today I realized that my biggest fault is worrying too much about all things big & small.  Project for today: explore being carefree. No, I am not trying to change me - merely explore other ways of being me. Hopefully resulting in a 'better' me.  Am I justinfying my actions again?

Me

Until next time...